Day 10

I guess because it was overcast and cool (cool is a relative term), I thought Tuesday’s run would be easy (easy is a relative term). I was wrong.

I struggled … the entire way. It just wasn’t a good running day. And, I’m trying to realize that bad days happen. And, I’m trying to not get down on myself. The entire 45 minutes I was attempting to run, I had negative thoughts swirling in my head: “You suck. You can’t run. Why did you ever think you could run a half marathon?”

Two days later, I’m ready to give it a shot again. Looking back on it, I still enjoyed running – even if it was a struggle. It’s a constant challenge, and I love that. As long as I keep trying, I’ll be happy because I’m running.

Day 9

Well, it was a crappy running weekend. I tried to do my 30-minute progressive run on Saturday night, and it was a major bust. I ran 7 minutes – not 27, not 17, just 7. A measley 7 minutes. I couldn’t run any farther. So, to sum it up: a really sucky performance.

Then, at our group run on Sunday, I sucked it up too. The goal was to run 4 miles. I did not. I ran 2.5 miles (struggling the whole way), and then did walk-run intervals. I was slow. Really, painfully slow — slower than normal, which is scary because I’m slow to begin with.

I really don’t know why. I can go back to my “It’s hot” excuse, but I’m getting tired of that (although I do think it was hotter than normal on Saturday since Reggie Bush was in town with his Miami Dolphins to play the Tampa Bay Buccaneers). I guess I’ll just say it was a bad run (or two) and hope that I do better at our group run on Tuesday.